Wednesday, August 24, 2011
My Mama's Gone to Heaven
One of my favorite memories of my mom is waking to the bright sinshine as she raised the shades and sang "Good Morning Mary Sunshine". Her signature greeting, a smile on her lips, twinkle in her eye, and song in her heart. To those that knew her, she was the perfect blend of spices and herbs that made that sauce forever simmering on the stove simply out of this world. In the last few years she managed to slip away from us, slowly passing through the veil between this world and the next. She was ready, she told me to move on to whatever was next. When I asked her if she would come back and tell me what it was like on the other side, she replied, "Oh, I don't know if that is allowed." It was almost as if she didn't want to make a promise she wasn't sure she could keep.
Now that she is actually gone, I'm anxious for her visit. Exhausted with grief I'd love to tell my favorite story about her.
When I was just a little thing, I'd tell my mom, "I love you." She just smiled and gave me a big hug and say, oh baby, you're just you wait. You're just beginning to understand what love is. As I dated into my 20's and I'd tell her I was in love, she'd say, "Just you wait. Just wait until you find the right man, it will be then, you'll really know what love is.
When Arthur and I became engaged, I called her especally to tell her, "Mom, you were right, I found the right person, I finally understand what love is." I couldn't imagine loving anything more than my hunky hubby. She just smiled and said, "Just you wait. Just wait until you have a child of your own."
Three years later, I gave birth to a baby boy and suddenly overcome with heart wrenching joy. I couldn't imagine loving anything more than this beautiful baby boy. She came and stayed with us and helped out the first few months. I was so happy to report back to her that she was right, I had found pure unconditional love. She just smiled with that twinkle in her eye and said, "Just you wait. Just you wait until you have grandchildren."